My life has changed a lot in the past few months in ways that I never would have imagined. My plans have changed and God has most definitely taken control of things.
In less than a month, I will be moving away from my school, my friends, my family, from everything that is familiar to me and moving to a place that I know absolutely nothing about.
Throughout the past few months, I have struggled with this decision. I keep questioning whether I did the right thing, if I was going where God wanted me to go, if I was really doing something that I was called to do.
I recently started reading the Jesus Calling devotion and it seems like every single day’s devotional that I have been reading in the past few weeks has talked about finding peace and assurance that you are exactly where God wants you to be. Peace and comfort has been a common theme in my life the last two weeks, but along with that peace comes lots of fear, anxiety, worry, and many other emotions. I am incredibly sad to be leaving my friends at IWU and incredibly worried about moving to a place where I don’t know many people.
But I can’t get over the fact that God is speaking through so many different sources the past week or so. I can’t get over the fact that no matter what I am doing, I feel comfort and although I am incredibly sad, I am also very joyful and excited about the things to come. I know that God is in fact in control and that He will take care of me, no matter where I end up. At church today, we sang a song by Hillsong called “Arms Open Wide.” As we started singing the chorus, I immediately felt peace again and I know the reasons why God has opened the doors that he has. The song talks about surrendering to His name and letting Him have His way in your life.
My whole life is Yours
I give it all
Surrendered to Your Name
And forever I will pray
Have Your way.
So, although I am scared to death, today I am surrendering to His way and giving my life to Him…God have Your way…use me for Your glory.
